My friendship with Multiple Sclerosis
Part 2

Nada Amine Awar

In 31 October 2017 I published my first article holding the same title you can read at
https://kenanaonline.com/users/Nadamine/topics/167198#http://kenanaonline.com/users/Nadamine/posts/953373
I was clear that I am a citizen of Nutopia that John Lennon and his wife Yoko Ono announced its birth in 1973:
DECLARATION OF NUTOPIA
We announce the birth of a conceptual country, NUTOPIA.
Citizenship of the country can be obtained by declaration of your awareness of NUTOPIA.
NUTOPIA has no land, no boundaries, no passports, only people.
NUTOPIA has no laws other than cosmic.
All people of NUTOPIA are ambassadors of the country.
As two ambassadors of NUTOPIA, we ask for diplomatic immunity and recognition in the United Nations of our country and its people.
John Ono Lennon
Yoko Ono Lennon
Nutopian Embassy
One White Street
New York, NY 10013
April 1st, 1973
Since I got MS I started to write poetry in Arabic and English especially and I had all the time to be with myself.
In 2012, I was selected and featured, with my biography and poetry included, in the historical anthology Best Poets and Poems of 2012, which is preserved in the Library of Congress in the United States.
Best Poets and Poems of 2012
Library of Congress
ISBN: 978-1-61961-936-0
I received two international medals, which were sent by registered mail to Beirut.
My friendship with M.S gave me a helping hand to express myself in poetry which was a successful story.
My life continued to be closer and closer to the Cosmic Law fundamental principles which changed my way of thinking and my daily behavior and my health step by step.
I started to use the indigenous song "Indian dream" for my daily meditation. You can enjoy listening to it:
https://youtu.be/6WV7UbC-9rM?si=sK4p1-8_xyDQeYsA
I was completely evolving with the music and lyrics exactly when it says:
Come with me
And take my hand
I'll bring you to
The Promised Land
I surrounded with complete passion and unambiguous conviction to the call. This moved me to ecstasy when I could fly high to a sky with no limits, and to dive deeply in my inner self to cope with life as it is. Here I understood that unity is where everything in the universe is interconnected. Every organism, ecosystem, and celestial body exists within a larger web of relationships. On earth the water cycle links oceans, clouds, rivers, plants, and animals. Humans depend on countless microorganisms and ecosystems for survival.
Every force has effects. Biological and ecological changes result from preceding conditions. In many spiritual traditions this is expressed as karma:
Where actions influence future experiences.
Nature continually seeks dynamic equilibrium rather than permanent stability. Creation unfolds through recurring patterns:
- Day and night.
- Seasons.
- Birth, growth, death, and decomposition.
Nothing remains fixed indefinitely. Species evolve, Continents move within and around me. Galaxies change over billions of years since human knowledge continually develops. There is diversity within unity and that's why life flourishes through variety while remaining part of one biosphere .No living thing exists in complete isolation. Plants rely on pollinators, animals depend on plants, fungi recycle nutrients and humans rely on ecosystems and on one another.
We are made of energy that transforms rather than disappears. Science describes this through conservation laws:
- Energy changes form.
- Matter is continually recycled through Earth's systems.
I gradually became much better, but I could not get rid of fear in a sectarian violent country. The civil war in Lebanon started when I was only 18 years old and it did not end till now. I was introduced to Rabindranath Tagore who became my Guru DEV.
I started using his poem "The Hero" side by side with "Indian dream" song. The poem says:
Mother, let us imagine we are travelling, and passing through a
strange and dangerous country.
You are riding in a palanquin and I am trotting by you on a
red horse.
It is evening and the sun goes down.
The west of Joradighi lies wan and grey before us.
The land is desolate and barren.
You are frightened and thinking-"I know not where we have come
to."
I say to you, "Mother, do not be afraid."
The meadow is prickly with spiky grass, and through it runs
a narrow broken path.
There are no cattle to be seen in the wide field; they have gone to their village stalls.
It grows dark and dim on the land and sky, and we cannot tell where we are going.
Suddenly you call me and ask me in a whisper, "What light is that near the bank?"
Just then there bursts out a fearful yell, and figures come running towards us.
You sit crouched in your palanquin and repeat the names of the gods in prayer.
The bearers, shaking in terror, hide themselves in the thorny bush.
I shout to you, "Don't be afraid, mother. I am here."
With long sticks in their hands and hair all wild about their
heads, they come nearer and nearer.
I shout, "Have a care, you villains! One step more and you are dead men."
They give another terrible yell and rush forward.
You clutch my hand and say, "Dear boy, for heaven's sake, keep away from them." I say, "Mother, just you watch me."
Then I spur my horse for a wild gallop, and my sword and buckler clash against each other.
The fight becomes so fearful, mother, that it would give you a cold shudder could you see it from your palanquin.
Many of them fly, and a great number are cut to pieces.
I know you are thinking, sitting all by yourself, that your boy must be dead by this time.
But I come to you all stained with blood, and say,"Mother, the fight is over now."
You come out and kiss me, pressing me to your heart, and you say to yourself,
"I don't know what I should do if I hadn't my boy to escort me."
A thousand useless things happen day after day, and why couldn't such a thing come true by chance?
It would be like a story in a book.
My brother would say, "Is it possible? I always thought he was so delicate!"
Our village people would all say in amazement, "Was it not lucky that the boy was with his mother?"
You can easily say that I am like a child talking to a butterfly and getting certain answers.
Getting rid of fear I became much better and MRI proved that I was healed from M.S 5 years ago. I stopped using drugs with harmful severe side effects to live a secure joyful life.
To be continued
Why did I get the M.S? An answer....