المصدر: ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﻌﺮﻑ ﻋﺬﺭﻱ ﻟﻌﺮﻓﺖ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺷﻔﺎﻩ ﻳﺒﺘﺴﻢ ﻟﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺑﺤﺰﻧﻲ ﺗﺪﺭﻱ ﻷﺩﺭﺍﻙ ﺍﻟﺤﺰﻥ ﺷﻘﺎﺀ ﻋﻠﻲ ﺍﻟﻮﺟﻪ ﻳﺮﺗﺴﻢ ﻭﻛﻴﻒ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﺧﺒﺮﻱ ﻭﺃﻧﺎ ﻓﻲ ﻗﻴﻮﺩ ﺍﻷﻟﻢ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺪﻡ ﻣﻌﺘﺼﻢ ﻳﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ ﺍﻟﻌﻘﻞ ﺑﻔﻜﺮﻱ ﻭﻛﻠﻤﺎﺕ ﺍﻟﻴﺄﺱ ﺗﺸﺘﻌﻞ ﻟﻬﻴﺐ ﻓﻲ ﻓﻤﻲ ﻓﻜﻴﻒ ﺃﺟﺤﺪ ﻗﺪﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﺷﻜﻮ ﺍﻟﻘﻀﺎﺀ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﻘﺘﺴﻢ ﻭﺩﺍﺋﻤﺎ ﺃﺗﻔﻘﺪ ﺃﺛﺮﻱ ﻓﻀﺎﻉ ﺍﻟﻄﺮﻳﻖ ﻭﺿﺎﻉ ﺍﻷﺛﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻗﺪﻣﻲ ﺃﺩﻋﻮ ﺍﻟﻠﻪ ﻭﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ ﻣﺘﻲ ﺳﺄﺟﺪ ﻭﺟﻮﺩﻱ ﺑﻌﺪ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺃﻧﻈﺮ ﻓﻲ ﺍﻟﺴﻤﺎﺀ ﺇﻟﻲ ﻗﻤﺮﻱ ﺑﺪﻣﻮﻉ ﺍﻟﺤﺴﺮﺓ ﻭﺍﻟﻨﺪﻡ ﻓﻠﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺟﺮﻭﺣﻲ ﻭﺃﺣﺰﺍﻧﻲ ﻭﺃﺑﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻊ ﺃﺳﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﻋﺬﺍﺭﻱ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﺸﻐﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺎﻧﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻢ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻩ ....... ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻝ ﻳﺒﺘﺴﻢ ............................................................... ﺃﺑﺘﺴﻢ ﺑﺎﻛﻴﺎ ﻭﺃﺑﻜﻲ ﺿﺎﺣﻜﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﺊ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﺃﺛﻮﺭ ﻫﺎﺋﺠﺎ ﻭﺃﺳﺠﺪ ﺧﺎﺷﻌﺎ ﻟﻤﺎ ﻗﺴﻤﻪ ﻗﻀﺎﺋﻲ ﻭﻗﺪﺭﻱ ﺃﺭﺍﻓﻖ ﺍﻟﻠﻴﻞ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻲ ﺧﻠﻴﻠﻪ ﻭﺃﻋﺎﻧﻖ ﺍﻟﻈﻞ ﻭﻛﺄﻧﻲ ﻗﻨﺪﻳﻠﻪ ... ﻭﻻ ﻳﻌﻠﻢ ﺃﺣﺪﺍ ﺧﺒﺮﻱ .... ﻛﺎﻟﺮﺍﻫﺐ ﺍﻟﺬﻱ ﻳﺘﻌﺒﺪ ﻟﻴﻼ ﻭﺍﻟﻌﺎﺷﻖ ﺍﻟﻤﺘﻴﻢ ﺑﻠﻴﻠﻰ ﻭﻋﻦ ﺃﺣﺰﺍﻧﻲ ﻻ ﺃﺩﺭﻱ .... ﻛﻴﻒ ﺃﻟﻤﻠﻢ ﺟﺮﺍﺣﻲ ﻭﺗﺮﻱ ﺍﻟﺸﻤﺲ ﺻﺒﺎﺣﻲ .... ﻭﻷﺣﺒﺎﺑﻲ ﺃﻗﺪﻡ ﻋﺬﺭﻱ .... ﺃﺳﺎﻓﺮ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻋﻘﻠﻲ ﻭﻗﻠﺒﻲ ﺳﻨﻴﻦ ﻳﻘﺘﻠﻨﻲ ﻓﻴﻬﺎ ﺍﻟﺸﻮﻕ ﻭﺍﻟﺤﻨﻴﻦ ﺇﻟﻰ ﺿﻴﺎﺀ ﻓﺠﺮﻱ .... ﻓﻜﻢ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻩ ﻣﺰﻗﺘﻨﻲ ﻣﻦ ﻓﺮﻗﺔ ﺍﻟﻮﻃﻦ ﺃﺣﺮﻗﺘﻨﻲ ... ﻭﺗﻠﻮﻣﻨﻲ ﻟﻬﺠﺮﻱ .. ﻓﻼ ﺃﻣﻠﻚ ﺷﺊ ﺳﻮﻯ ﻗﻠﻤﺎ ﺃﺟﻨﺒﻴﺎ ﻭﺣﺒﺮﺍ ﻋﺮﺑﻴﺎ ...... ﺑﻜﻠﻤﺎﺗﻪ ﺃﺗﻮﻩ ﺑﻔﻜﺮﻱ ﻓﺄﺣﻴﺎﻧﺎ ﺃﺑﺘﺴﻢ ﺑﺎﻛﻴﺎ ﻭﺃﺑﻜﻲ ﺿﺎﺣﻜﺎ ﻭﻛﺄﻥ ﻫﻨﺎﻙ ﺷﺊ ﻓﻲ ﺻﺪﺭﻱ ﻓﻠﻮ ﻛﻨﺖ ﺗﻌﻠﻢ ﻛﻞ ﺫﻟﻚ ﻷﺩﺭﻛﺖ ﺟﺮﻭﺣﻲ ﻭﺃﺣﺰﺍﻧﻲ ﻭﺃﺑﺎﺡ ﺍﻟﺪﻣﻊ ﺃﺳﺮﺍﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﺧﺒﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﺃﻋﺬﺍﺭﻱ ﻭﻣﺎ ﻳﺸﻐﻞ ﺑﺎﻟﻲ ﻭﺃﻓﻜﺎﺭﻱ ﻭﻣﺎ ﺃﻋﺎﻧﻴﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺃﻟﻢ ﻷﻥ ﺍﻟﻌﺬﺍﺏ ﻓﻮﻕ ﺍﻟﺸﻔﺎﻩ ﻣﺎ ﺯﺍﻝ ﻳﺒﺘﺴﻢ